Shobha Nargundkar

I attended a workshop " Love Yourself and heal your life" in 2002 by Sailaja that changed the way I looked at myself and my life. The change was obviously not apparent for everyone to see immediately and it was also not what everyone would like to see. Because this change was within me and about loving myself and taking care of my feelings and my emotions. And the techniques were very simple to use and apply. Once you are aware of the changes you want to make and know what you want to create, its a question of focussing on what you want using affirmations, vizualisations etc... and slowly moving away from negative self talk to a positive empowering one. Even if you don't do anything else, only thinking " I love and accept myself exactly as I am" is a potent tool. Saying it when you least feel like it is the key. Since then, I have come a long way -learning new tools and techniques on the way, reading books, meditations, experiencing past-life regression, learni...

Recently when Aai left for America, I took it upon myself to clean up her place... why would I want to do that, when I could have just relaxed and enjoyed myself. Especially since it appears that she doesn't want anything cleaned up anyway.... I don't know, its almost a compulsive need in me to clean her house. I don't like the fact that she surrounds herself with lots and lots of stuff- from the smallest bit of paper that enters the house to the largest cupboards and shelves... and every bit is preserved. As you can imagine, over the years, the free space is reduced and trash is filled up in every nook and corner. So the 'bai' that comes in doesn't know where to start cleaning, so she doesn't. Result... all surfaces are filled with dust, webs and you name it... Since I visit from time to time, I suggest not without expectation that she should not collect any more stuff or provide storage space for junk in the hope that it might be needed some day, but I gue...