Shobha Nargundkar

I hate going to hospitals and doctors in general and dentists in particular. The smells remind me of unfortunate visits to the hospital for vaccinations, for surgery and most recently for my c-section, and then with Anjali last year. Reflecting on all these visits to the hospitals and why they are not happy experiences I found that I feel i have no control over the situation once we are in their care. That in itself a good thing because we can surrender completely and let them do their job. After all they are the experts. But the problem comes because I doubt their expertise and fear that they may not take sufficient care or they may not know what to do and then I might suffer as a result. I subscribe to the general belief that doctors are very "commercial" and prescribe medicines even when they are not required. And do not care about the side effects on your body. They only address the symptoms and not the cause.( Usually, these days you do meet some holistic and suppor...

Mothers help bring out all your emotions. Anger at always being treated as if 'you don't know', intense irritation at their 'I know..', frustration at their inability to understand your point of view, guilt at hurting them with your tone, your words, not taking better care of them and their needs,not spending enough time, feeling 'not good enough' when they criticize you or your way of life, feeling 'better than' when we are able to put our feet up and not worry about chores, feeling 'less than' when you think of all they have done and the way they have lived through so many odds and feeling 'love' and so many more... My mother is visiting and even though I have evolved from a 100% intolerant daughter a few years ago, to may be a 50% one, I am still surprised by some of the emotions that surface for trivial matters..triggers that bring out the suppressed emotions I'm sure. These days I erupt at something (less frequently than ...

Feelings are very strange. They seem to have no apparent logic. They seem to arrive without any notice(unwanted guests!) and are mostly dependent on what other people say or do. You have no control over your feelings. You can stuff them in 'after' they come up . Only if you are very aware,living in the moment, then may be you can watch them coming and feel them completely and let them go. Otherwise what we (me and most of my clients) do mostly with feelings is that when they suddenly descend upon us, if we like the feeling we enjoy it , and when we don't like the feeling, we try to resist it and like all things we try to resist, it persists. The more I say, 'why am I feeling this way, I don't want to feel this way',.. the more intensely I feel more of the same. Law of Attraction at work! The more I focus on what I don't want, the more i will get of what i don't want.. the Universe operates on key words and my feelings associated with it. I realised after...