I had a dream

I dreamt this dream a couple of days ago..

We (Hari & I) see a body lying in the bushes outside our home. Its some other place not where we live now and we are scared(at least I am) that the police will come to us for questioning, and for no logical reason other than my fear of the law and the authorities, I fear being dragged or implicated in the death of this unknown person, especially if we tell the truth about our whereabouts and about not knowing anything.

So we decide to stay away(at least I ask Hari to stay away from home and he agrees) and then we plan on what to tell the police if they come and so on... All this planning ...just because we saw a body lying outside at a distance in the bushes!

Hari leaves and suddenly I realize(thank God!) that we don't need to make any elaborate plans to evade anyone or anything because we haven't done anything unlawful and that is the truth! I frantically try to call Hari and cannot get through for a while and i'm worried now that we have not agreed to speak the truth. Suddenly he is home and I'm relieved. I tell him what I think and he agrees and we are both relieved and happy that we don't have to lie and keep worrying about not exposing the lies... WE can speak the truth and sleep peacefully in the knowlegde.

I decided to share this dream because I realised 2 things here -that many times when someone is angry or something is going wrong around me, I think ' Is it my fault? Did I do something wrong?' and feel miserable and guilty and run away from the situation instead of seeing it the way it is.. for fear of being blamed for something i didn't do.

If all this doesn't make any sense, its ok..its not your fault!!!!

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  1. Milind DeshpandeApril 13, 2010 at 11:47 PM

    Dear Shobha,
    I found all your blogs "The Goal", "The week that was" and "the Dream" very readable and interesting. You do have an ability to look inward and read your own mind. This is very essential I think, for good writing. Keep it up. Milind

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